Friday night birthday was quite nice. Didn’t meet a new ‘Him’, but then I wasn’t really looking.

The weather was so nice on Saturday so I spent most of it in my little bit of garden enjoying the heat from the sun and a little bit of reading. Well a big bit of reading by my standards. It’s not often I read a whole book in one ’sitting’.
The book was ‘for one more Day’ by Mitch Albom.

I couldn’t stop turning the pages.
When I got to the last page I cried buckets.

PS There were birthday cards when I got home on Friday. But not one from ‘Him’. I thought that was a bit strange. I would have sent him one.
Maybe I’m better off without him. (she said, unconvincingly)

Listened to Simply Red in the car on my way home from work last night.
There’s a song on it called ‘So Not Over You’.
Hadn’t really ever listened to the lyrics before.

Don’t know why I still slept on my side of the bed
The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid, yeah yeah

So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call
Felt a little better, told myself I’d be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead, yeah yeah

‘Cos everywhere I go
There’s a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
‘Cos I still believe and I could see how there’s nothing left of you and me
That time is over
‘Cos I’m so not over you

I cried.